Give and it will be multiplied in return.

When I was in need, I used to go to the PEA (Perpetual Adoration Chapel), daily. This was the time when I was at my lowest emotionally and financially. I would always ask for the Lord's message through the scriptures. These are the messages indelibly written in my mind:

1, Matthew 7:7-8

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who ask receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

2. Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you, DECLARES THE Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

3.Luke 5:8

Don't be afraid, from now on you will catch men.

I used to think that I was self-sufficient, that I didn't need to bother other people about my needs, and I would rather be not bothered by others as well.
In other words, I was full of pride (one of the capital sins).

Before, I was so hesitant to give what I have, thinking that what I have would be diluted or diminished, The secret to having more is to give, because the Lord will give you back what you have given...multiplied!This is not only financially, but all areas of your life. But don't wrong anybody.

My thinking was, if you can do it, can also do it or if you hurt me, I can also hurt you. It was a "tooth for tooth and a nail for a nail" attitude. The Lord tested me and I became depressed, I have lost my love ones (left home).
If you are under this situation, the Lord uses somebody to reach out and bring you
back to His fold. He used two friends for me to attend the Life in the Spirit Seminars (5 times), attended prayer group meetings and was a daily visitor of the PEA.

The reason why we have to go Mass every Sunday is to celebrate with the congregation, our brothers and sisters in Christ. We should not be alone, we have to mix and help our brothers sisters in whatever needs they have.

The Lord has His mysterious ways on calling His prodigal children, His lost lambs.
He gave me hope, love, charity and direction.

As for catching men, the Lord led me to undergo spiritual formation to teach children and adults on the good news about our God.

So, suicide is not an option although it crossed my mind when I was at rock bottom and not yet molded.

Life is beautiful! We have different degrees of difficulties, but with God with us, nothing is impossible with HIM. But YOU HAVE TO ASK.